its been a while since I updated this so here is the bad news firstly
*I've dropped down from 50nl to 25nl:
this was a hard pill to swallow as you can imagine.
It wasnt due to the fact I couldnt beat the game, since I was beating it regulary and making a decent amount. The problem was, around the time I moved to 50nl I had a fianancial issue with my rent, it went up slightly and my real job wasnt even paying the full amount. So poker was needed to pay part of the rent and then I had to pay myself living costs so I had to use poker every month I had to give myself at least living costs on top of my rent. First month this was easy, since I already did well in my first month of 50nl so I withdrew a decent amount and just made a point of keeping an extra $500 on top of my bankroll I could use to cushion.
On Hindsight this is were my problems started I made it so that my bankroll couldnt grow and became more succeptable to a downswing becuase of it, after adding up all I made I could have moved up to 100nl very comfortably rolled right now, but bills. And my relecutance to do overtime in work which I now realise would have been the most +Ev decession for my bankroll since it could have just kept growing un hindered, however being part time employed, and the soul crushing job that it is I chose poker :)
it was around the 3rd month I started getting in to trouble I withdrew a fair amount again but this time I had to take money off my cushion just to pay the minimum living costs. And after that I had a very bad run in halfway to month 4 I lost 600 it was bad play and bad luck combined which is the most fatal combination for a bankroll. It put me in a very bad situation being rent was comming up and my bankroll for 50nl was average 20buyin...I dont like average buyins it adds stress on top of what I was already doing. But I now had a poker decission away from the table, If I continued to play 50nl I could've seriously damaged my bankroll if I downswinged more and made the process of playing 50nl alot harder and getting back up to 50nl was also a concenern if i lost 10 buyins for example.
So I bit the bullet and said I gotta move down.
I always remember an article I read saying that your never a 50nl player or 100nl player...your a poker player and you have to move down or up according to you as a poker player thinks is the best option, I seen this as my best option since in a month i could be back at 50nl cracking heads again rather than risking more of my roll to do so.
But this puts me in a real life problem.... so I decided to do some more soul crushing work overtime, but in the middle of this I realised how stupid i was to try and go pretty much pro with such a low bankroll and also realising i played bad , put me in this spot wasnt a help neither. I decided that poker was something i wanted to do still after having a taste for it isnt glamarous at all and its STRESSFULL but...i'm kinda sick and I enjoy the ups and downs in one way.
I eventually will turn pro however, I have to sort my mind out first, I cant be worrying about bills and money, poker money and real life should never interjecht. unless ur playing high enough and have the skill and bankroll to support it. So this meens I'm gunna do a course in a subject i wouldnt mind working in, it should take less than a year to be earning decent amount of money in a job i wouldnt mind doing, but doing this I think is a smart option, if i have decent money it meens i can play higher games and steadily improve my skill with 1 on 1 coaching, also its nice to have that to fall back on.
for the time being slight soul crushing overtime but you will probably see more of me on the tables soon, growing my bankroll...not withdrawing it!!
I've only recently got my head around playing again since I've been working alot and had alot on my mind with poker. This is were my depression came in the feeling of failure, however I learnt more from my failure than I have of my success in poker I came back playing recently to get back on my feet, and I realised that its not the end of the world and 50nl isnt far away from playin again I know I'm a winning player at 25nl with very good winrate so it shouldnt be a problem when I reach 50nl I should rocket up since I wont be withdrawing.
seeing how serious I got in this post here is something to light it up some
And also a real amazing youtube vid I came across I just had to share.
(dont usually post this sorta thing but why not?), check it out
guy is talented!
Here is some great sites to try out:
- Learn poker at DragtheBar for 7 days free! click here
- PKR is a cool 3D poker site, also super soft! PKR Poker
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